Unbelievable...

i cant believe i did that....

plz tell me its a dream....

Emptiness

i just dont know what to do with it... i know that the love i had b4 was not there anymore... its now just a complicated friendship that we having now... so lets just hv a 2 weeks of emptiness stays empty deep inside me... not thinking of anything... be crazy... at least i have someone beside me for this 2 weeks... altho i know its not really the thing i want... not the person that i want... but... he's fine for the moment... at least he's open and doesnt freak out and avoid me....

feels not right...

well i know that they were just talking... and i dont think its anyway, any freaking way my problem or related to me... but the words are just too much to take... its like stabbing into my heart without anyone realizing it... and the words made me realize what kinda person is in your partnership... your 2 person limited partnership... its just simply not me... i'm just not crazy enough for you... aren't i...?

question is...
should i just avoid you these few months...?
avoid as in fb, msn, sms... n everything...
should i just try to let myself be stupid again and go for another one?
well a lota ppl will say no for the 2nd question i guess... for it is too dumb... but how to forget about what's happening now... ...?

it just happened

and i cant help it...
it just did...