心。

好久没有写了。。。

差点忘了有这个地方呢。。。

怎么说呢。。？

都不要紧了吧。。。

一厢情愿的不要回报，

也怕和他要。。。

怕和他联络会烦到他，

怕去找他，别人会说他。。

眼睁睁看着他高兴的和她聊天，

感觉就像，一双手的把他奉献给她人。。。

而我什么都没有权说，什么都没有权做。。

虽然有人给我转移注意力。。。

可是，你知道吗？

通常电话拿起的时候，

第一个我都会想起你。。。

然后会有一个声音告诉我

“不行，不能烦他了。不然你连朋友这个地位都会没有的。。。”

我知道我陷入太深了。。

所以，

就让我这样的过完这些日子吧。。。

可能出了社会工做，

没有时间找他，

就会慢慢忘记吧。。。

心痛的感觉，只有自己懂

Unbelievable...

i cant believe i did that....

plz tell me its a dream....

Emptiness

i just dont know what to do with it... i know that the love i had b4 was not there anymore... its now just a complicated friendship that we having now... so lets just hv a 2 weeks of emptiness stays empty deep inside me... not thinking of anything... be crazy... at least i have someone beside me for this 2 weeks... altho i know its not really the thing i want... not the person that i want... but... he's fine for the moment... at least he's open and doesnt freak out and avoid me....

feels not right...

well i know that they were just talking... and i dont think its anyway, any freaking way my problem or related to me... but the words are just too much to take... its like stabbing into my heart without anyone realizing it... and the words made me realize what kinda person is in your partnership... your 2 person limited partnership... its just simply not me... i'm just not crazy enough for you... aren't i...?

question is...
should i just avoid you these few months...?
avoid as in fb, msn, sms... n everything...
should i just try to let myself be stupid again and go for another one?
well a lota ppl will say no for the 2nd question i guess... for it is too dumb... but how to forget about what's happening now... ...?

it just happened

and i cant help it...
it just did...

Ignore it...

let me just do this for now...
cuz i dont even know who "it's" for...

N'aime pas Toujour ... ...

I wonder if its just me being too sensitive...?

Or is this just the way it always should be...?


You can just tell me,
and i'll go away....