PreCious LittLe EveryThing

Tu Me Oublier

2011-08-22T00:51:00.002+08:00

pourquoi?

je ne suis pas ton amie? pourquoi tu peux oublier moi?

je te connais depuis de nombreuses années...

je pense que je ne suis pas ton amie depuis longtemp déjà...

Singapore Fun!!!! XD

2011-07-11T21:57:00.003+08:00

Whheeeeee~~~~!!! Hello Folks!!

Well, went to Singapore on 6th July with my parents and my Baobei~!!!
Had so much fun that me and baobei still missing the times we had when we were there even when its already 2 days passed after we came back to KL...

6th July:

had breakfast and head to fetch Baobei Wei Hsien and straight to Singapore.

Reached hotel at about 12 something, put our luggage at the concierge and took a taxi to Marina Bay Sands.

Got up to the Skypark and took a LONG n HOT walk under the big big SUN..

took a taxi back to the hotel where we then check in and took a bath before we head out for a little dinner.

Went to Hard Rock Cafe with baobei for a drink before we hit the sack and had a great sleep...

1st day in Singapore!

*Marina Bay Sands Skypark*

With my Baobei~!! XD

*Marina Bay Sands Skypark*

2nd day in Singapore!

*Universal Studio Singapore*

My Baobei says :"Why Whoody got Girlfriend i dont know?? i dont want he got gf!! T.T"

hahahhaa!!! XP

*Universal Studio Singapore*

THE Popcorn Car!!!

*Universal Studio Singapore*

In the Land of Far Far Away...

*Shrek much??*
*Universal Studio Singapore*

*Universal Studio Singapore*

Joël Robuchon Restaurant

*wanted to go eat dinner with baobei there, but we dont hv the dresscode they required... T.T"

*Universal Studio Singapore*

*Charlie Chaplin!! XD*

*Universal Studio Singapore*

*The Mummy Guardian Guy which dont freaking smile and keep on staring at ppl*

*Universal Studio Singapore*

*The Lost T-Rex World!!! <3*

*Universal Studio Singapore*

Well, basically this is all that i feel like posting up here for you to look at.

and i've actually got slight sunburn.. luckily it wasn't that serious like my Baobei had when she went to Kota Kinabalu with the friends that time.. hehehe

So yeah!! That's all for this post!! XD

Happy Days Folks!!! <3

xoxo

I realized... FINALLY!!!

2011-07-08T23:04:00.002+08:00

OKAY~!!! I'VE FINALLY REALIZED!!!

This is freaking stupid.. i think i've finally realized what's happening and what's not gonna happen...

The feeling of figuring out this thing myself is...

Sad

Disappointed

Awaken

Its not cuz you've got someone you like... its just me that you're not interested..

All those BSs you've told...

i feel so silly now... for once being so sad bcause of you... for trusting what you said...

now i feel like your Toy.. look for me when you're bored, and hv fun with others when i'm bored..

so in the end,

whats happening:

you toying my feelings

whats not happening:

you interested in me

arrggg...

alright, done with all that..

would most probably posting my vacation pictures in the next post.. =)

To be or not to be

2011-06-27T23:28:00.002+08:00

To be or not to be, That's the question..

well, here i am again...

being bound to suffer because of myself..

saying this is because i cant blame you for getting myself to fall for you...

and i've fallen into this trap so fast i dont even know how to pull myself out...

but things hv to end one way or another..

i guess it depends on myself, whether to let this feeling go or not...

but as always i said,

if feelings could be thrown away so easily..

whats the point of falling for someone....?

it's not like throwing away some used item into the trash and have the truck to tow it away...

it's some organic trash that u need to bury and let it decompose itself...

shit... i dont even know what i wanna say anymore... haih...

Confucius? NO Another Confusion!!

2011-06-24T00:47:00.003+08:00

oh my god..

how do i even get the guts to tell you or ask you when i cant get a freaking clue of what you're thinking about me???!!!

am i really just a customer who accidentally got the chance to follow u around n hv fun

am i something else??!!

I AM SO CONFUSE!!!!

but at last i guess i'm just a normal person to you right...?

nothing else more...

nothing that i'd wished for will come true right...?

I just can say that Ms.O, you're too perasan, you're acting like a stalker..

and nobody will likes the way you're acting now.

"what if, there's another one he's thinking of..

maybe he's in love..

i feel like a fool..

life can be so cruel..

i don't know what to do...."

-Celine Dion

confusion, decision, limitation..

2011-03-21T15:02:00.002+08:00

i don't know what i want.

which makes me think a lot before and after everything.

this is when the confusion comes in and mess up my mind, leaving me decisions to make.

you're so good that i don't know how to push you away from me, how to keep myself out of trouble and away from problems...

you're so smart, hardworking, sportive, cute, and rational.. which i don't have most of them..

i got a little pull back and regret after i gave the phone number to her...

but when i thought of you saying i'm sportive..

i give her without thinking much more..

and if you really like her.. please be good to her..

she's not really that strong in the inside, although she looks like it..

讨厌

2011-02-11T23:32:00.002+08:00

讨厌你的自以为是

讨厌你的不理不睬

讨厌你的白目

讨厌你的胡思乱想

讨厌你的指责

讨厌你的一时温柔

讨厌你说的话

讨厌你的冲动

讨厌你吸引了我

虽然我不知道你那里吸引我。。。

矛盾的心情。。

2011-01-22T21:51:00.002+08:00

矛盾。。非常矛盾。。。超级矛盾！！！

那到底是喜欢？还是爱？还是爱慕？还是嫉妒？还是崇拜？

这些到底有什么不同？很大很大的不同。。。

可是有没有人可以告诉我，我到底是喜欢 “他” 还是 “他”？？？

为什么当我得知他约她吃晚餐时。。

我的心麻木了。。。？

我好想告诉她不要去扑约。。可是我又怕他伤心。。。

我也想劝她去扑约，可是我怕会变成 “历史” 重演。。也怕他们真的在一起。。。

我的心很痛。。。

有谁有解痛药。。。？

我好矛盾，好辛苦，好难受，好纳闷。。。。。

Yes, its me again

2011-01-04T07:22:00.003+08:00

i'm the one who's wrong again

i'm the one who's insulting someone again, although i dont really know what did i say which is so insulting

i'm the one who's ruin everything again

i'm the one who's treat you cold again

i'm the one who's being rude again

why is it always i'm the one who's doing the wrong thing and whatever thing that he do the TOTALLY CORRECT???

why is it i'm always the one who have to bare the insult and have to forget about it and i have to suffer from ignorance and betrayal??

Frustrated?

2010-12-23T19:54:00.002+08:00

YES! i'm FREAKING FRUSTRATED!!

and i dont even know why... cuz the person i'm frustrated over is not even "someone" in my life YET! and i really feel the heartache when he do the things he do... actually not really the things he "do" but the things he "dint" do!! such as :

>talk to me

>smile to me

>look straight at me

>reply my messages

it really bothers me cuz its like, one day you're nice to me and the next day you just splash me with a cold water... and SUDDENLY i'm a no friend zone! i'm really totally blurr right now... or maybe i'm really blurr for all my life...

but still please, why dont you just talk to me and tell me what's wrong....

i really wanna know...

心。

2010-10-13T23:47:00.003+08:00

好久没有写了。。。

差点忘了有这个地方呢。。。

怎么说呢。。？

都不要紧了吧。。。

一厢情愿的不要回报，

也怕和他要。。。

怕和他联络会烦到他，

怕去找他，别人会说他。。

眼睁睁看着他高兴的和她聊天，

感觉就像，一双手的把他奉献给她人。。。

而我什么都没有权说，什么都没有权做。。

虽然有人给我转移注意力。。。

可是，你知道吗？

通常电话拿起的时候，

第一个我都会想起你。。。

然后会有一个声音告诉我

“不行，不能烦他了。不然你连朋友这个地位都会没有的。。。”

我知道我陷入太深了。。

所以，

就让我这样的过完这些日子吧。。。

可能出了社会工做，

没有时间找他，

就会慢慢忘记吧。。。

心痛的感觉，只有自己懂

Unbelievable...

2010-07-07T13:46:00.003+08:00

i cant believe i did that....

plz tell me its a dream....

Emptiness

2010-07-06T13:46:00.002+08:00

i just dont know what to do with it... i know that the love i had b4 was not there anymore... its now just a complicated friendship that we having now... so lets just hv a 2 weeks of emptiness stays empty deep inside me... not thinking of anything... be crazy... at least i have someone beside me for this 2 weeks... altho i know its not really the thing i want... not the person that i want... but... he's fine for the moment... at least he's open and doesnt freak out and avoid me....

feels not right...

2010-07-02T16:14:00.003+08:00

well i know that they were just talking... and i dont think its anyway, any freaking way my problem or related to me... but the words are just too much to take... its like stabbing into my heart without anyone realizing it... and the words made me realize what kinda person is in your partnership... your 2 person limited partnership... its just simply not me... i'm just not crazy enough for you... aren't i...?

question is...
should i just avoid you these few months...?
avoid as in fb, msn, sms... n everything...
should i just try to let myself be stupid again and go for another one?
well a lota ppl will say no for the 2nd question i guess... for it is too dumb... but how to forget about what's happening now... ...?

it just happened

2010-07-02T01:21:00.001+08:00

and i cant help it...
it just did...

Ignore it...

2010-06-27T00:30:00.001+08:00

let me just do this for now...
cuz i dont even know who "it's" for...

N'aime pas Toujour ... ...

2010-06-18T02:17:00.007+08:00

I wonder if its just me being too sensitive...?

Or is this just the way it always should be...?

You can just tell me,
and i'll go away....

Realize....

2010-06-10T23:43:00.004+08:00

I suddenly realize that no matter how much i miss you, you'll never turn your head to me and look at me, talk to me... Did you even realize what you said is not something that you did....? Everything has changed since... was it my fault? Well i guess it was... i shouldn't have told you anything, i shouldn't have shown any expression that could have given you the clue, i shouldn't even have that kinda feeling... But you said everything will be just the same like what we used to be... But i realize now that it just can't be the same anymore... its getting heavier each day, and i just couldn't bare it any more... i want to blame the school, i want to blame her, i want to blame them... even tho i know i cant, cause I'm clear that the fault is not on them... but seeing that she makes you happy when i cant, i feel jealous and at the same time relieve... cause i had a feeling that you're slowly being happier than you used to... there's someone that you can trust... although... you said before that you wont... i'm sorry that i'm causing you these trouble...
you said before that you know "that kind of feeling" is awful, and you don't want me to have it... but the truth is, feelings cant be put down so easily... but i'm trying to, and i'll try hard...

Impossibilities...

2010-06-05T18:53:00.002+08:00

i wonder why things just goes to the different direction that i want them to be...
i gave my best for it...
but it turns out that way... so whats the point...?
it'll just be wasting my time...
but why am i always so annoyingly do the things i shouldn't be doing....?
and at last get myself hurt... without being able to tell anyone...
or rather to say... I'm afraid to tell you........
the one who I'd like to share everything with....

Habit...ais...

2010-05-27T23:49:00.002+08:00

It kinda light me a bulb looking at this verb....
J'habit+ais=J'habitais...
Habit is usually hard as ais(ice)...
You have to wait for it to melt... n some ice just does not melt fast...

i'm just trying to say that i cant seems to change the habit of telling everything to you...
but something kept me from doing that...
i know its better for me to NOT hv that thing to keep me from you...
but its like the ice... it doesnt wanna melt...

__________________________________________________________

Taylor Swift : Teardrops On My Guitar Lyrics

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
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我决定我的决定。。。

2010-05-14T20:52:00.002+08:00

我想，你已经决定了。
就像我对他一样，做了我的决定。
那我也应该是时候，对你做个决定了。。。
。。。
我。。。
现在可以感受到。。。
你以前所有的感受。。。
我该怪校园搬了。。。？
还是怪我的梦。。。？
还是我的心。。。？

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-12T22:44:00.001+08:00

他妈的！！！
连朋友都没得做了吗？？？！！！！

我只要回以前的时光都不能吗？？？！！

讨厌你啦 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~！！！！！

I Dont Know

2010-05-11T19:54:00.002+08:00

Breakeven
(The Script)

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no

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This is such a nice song...
especially the part "what am i gonna do when the best part of me was always you?"
This song made me think of a lot of ppl...
a lot of things...

But i realize now that i dont have time to think about things anymore...
i need to concentrate on my study...
desperately i need some changes in myself...
where i dont know where to start with...

So....
Wish me luck~!!
Muaxx!!

Dream...

2010-05-04T19:46:00.002+08:00

Can anyone know how a dream can be so real...?
I know that won't happen in real life...
Still... Can't help it...
I can still feel the feeling....
I can still remember how it was....
I can still tell you what i did...

But... its only a Dream... Something that you cant Touch....

Finally~~!!!

2010-04-12T20:16:00.004+08:00

well... 2 years been thru fast enough for us to feels like we just passed a few days in diploma... but in reality, we've finished DIPLOMA IN HOSPITALITY MANAGEMENT on the 10th of April, with the witness of friends and lecturers that we've meet in the course since the first day of college...

i dont really know how to maintain a relationship between friends as i dont know how to communicate really well sometimes... anything that i do wrong to you guys... do forgive me... i might be insignificant, but I'll be right here when you need me... altho i might not contact you for long or whatsoever... but i'll still remember you and the things that we've done together... you dont get any stupid loyal friends like this much around easily~!! ;P

okay!! lets cut this shit n back to positivity~!!!

today went to college to register n i freaking forget to ask what i need to bring for registration!!!! OMG!!! why am i again this stupid??? n i even forget to bring the form back for dad to sign!!! T_T
but then i'm happy again~~~ cuz went to movie with Eunice Chan Shu Kien!! hahaha!!! watched the cutest movie i've ever watched since long long time i guess...
which is........

*How to train your DRAGON*

after the movie went to The Manhattan Fish Market... The woman had Fish n Chips, and i had Caesar Salad with mushroom soup!! XD after that filling meal, we head all the way to kepong "I Love Koffee" n had each of us a big mug of Latte which cost not more than RM10!! which we think is quite worth cuz its a big mug and the quality of the Koffee is Great!!!

well anyway!! i'll be off now!! update next time ba!!!
MUAXX!!! XP

Tart! Tart! Tart! Fart!

2010-03-29T22:32:00.006+08:00

I'm so happy for my "Apple Tart"!!!

parents likes it... XD
gave some to neighbor...

"this picture is actually taken after my mom cut it into half, as you can see..."

wanna try making a crust that's smooooth...... XD
wonder how.... maybe i should just check online n see whether they tell you the method of doing the smooooth short-crust... hehe...

ANYWAY....

here's another song for some of my friends...

别再为他流泪
你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好就算了
心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉
每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉
以后管他是谁

Enjoy... Muaxx!

This is AWESOME SHIT!!! XD

2010-03-27T23:59:00.004+08:00

Well i just came back from THE KLIA. went to see my uncle off to Canada for work... kinda feel happy for him but feel sad for my aunt cuz she had to take care of the 2 little devil for about 2 months b4 going off to Canada to meet my uncle, so... yah... well thats not the main point of this post actually... the main point that i wanna say is, it really funny to see...

"someone"
who's suppose to be guarding the expensive cars in the carpark to be sleeping soundly...

he dint even freaking awaken by my dad's rawring engine sound!!! for the fact that my dad car is a BIG Diesel injected car... which most of the time it sounds like a LORRY!! this guy was still sleeping when we left that particular level of carpark~~ XD
i was suggesting my mother to go near that guy, slam the table n say

"WHERE IS MY CAR?????"

or

"AAAHHHHHH~~~!!!!!"

hahahahha!!!! well anyway, i dont really trust this kinda thing. they ask you to register cuz its a big car just for the safety of our car.... Freaking Bull SHIT! I can sue the hell out of him OR his employer if my car is gone man!!!! XD

L'oral De Francaise!!

2010-03-24T20:21:00.003+08:00

Gosh, i can say that we(the jury3 students) are freaking lucky to get Mr.Roma!! At first i was a bit annoyed that he took so much time for the previous students but, it was worth the wait... Not only that he smile constantly, he helps a lot too!!!
Il est tres sympathique!!
J'adore Monsieur Roma!!

Et Pour Vous Mon Amie,
i wish to tell you that "you wont fail.", but i wont say that.
cuz i wanna say "you'll fail" so that when you get the result of passing marks, you'll be freaking happy... D'accord?

Confused

2010-03-23T00:44:00.003+08:00

I freaking do not know what, why, where, who and how to do it.
dont get me wrong, and dont think anything wrongly.
1. What to do with my academic and my future?
2. How to do to get MY satisfaction of MY future?
3. Why should i do whatever thing that i'm doing to get the satisfaction?
4. Who should i be looking for to get these answer?
5. Where should i go in the future so that i could be happy as who i am...?

other than that...

Why cant i just freaking be smarter...? I mean, i dont mean to sound kia-su but... I dont wanna waste anyone's money... Other than about the studying part, why cant i also be smarter in handling ppl?? I feel like i'm being pull around like freaking buffalo (skinny one of cuz)!! Why cant i say no to the suggestions?? Why cant i give good defend words that can help me get out of some stupid conversation and have to be control by ppl??
BECAUSE I SUCKS!!
FCUK THAT!!!!

很有意思的歌词~！！

2010-03-23T00:25:00.002+08:00

为你我受冷风吹林忆莲

为你我受冷风吹
寂寞时候流眼泪
有人问我是与非
说是与非
可是谁又真的关心谁
若是爱已不可为
你明白说吧无所谓
不必给我安慰
何必怕我伤悲
就当我从此收起真情
谁也不给
我会试着放下往事
管它过去有多美
也会试着不去想起
你如何用爱将我包围
那深情的滋味
但愿我会就此放下往事
忘了过去有多美
不盼缘尽仍留慈悲
虽然我曾经这样以为
我真的这样以为

LaLaLa~~~

2009-06-19T00:09:00.002+08:00

I'm free as a bird in relationship.

Single n Available

But not interested in anyone anyhow

Friends comes first gals!!!

I'm free from my finals for this term.

Done everything and now relax

But somewat somehow, damn tired

Holiday is HERE!!!

不要啦！！！

2009-06-14T12:51:00.002+08:00

请大家告诉我，

不要再emo了！！

everyone plz tell me

not to be emo anymore!!

おねがいみんな、

付けてあたしemoじゃない!!

tout le monde parlent

je ne emo pas sil vous plait!!

你不该！！

2009-06-13T17:44:00.004+08:00

为什么？

我只是玩具吗？

为什么当那天我要把那提意当作开玩笑而带过时。。。

为什么你要把它拉回？！

如果你不把它拉回，

那我就不会那么辛苦，

就不会有欺骗的出现。

如果你不把它拉回去，

我今天就不会一边写着部落格，

一边骂你，

一边恨你。

可是脆弱的我，

心乱又心软的我，

也在心里的一个角落默默的等你。

我知道我很笨，

这是人人都知道的事，

不论做什么，

都做得很笨。

可是，

可不可以拜托你，

不要再take advantage of我的笨头脑，

也不要再调乱我的心。。。？

因为对着你，

我的心会裂掉。。。

啊~~~~~~！！！！

2009-06-11T21:42:00.003+08:00

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

没事，只是想喊一喊。。。。

2009-06-11T21:09:00.001+08:00

take a look at this video!!

how to speak fluent japanese without saying a word

well... at least to me its funny lah....

想知道。。。

2009-06-09T21:42:00.006+08:00

我好想。。。

真的好想知道。。。

我。。。。

到底有没有一点。。。

就一点点。。。

在你心里。。。？

好希望。。。

2009-06-07T18:34:00.002+08:00

好希望我也有一双翅膀

随时可以飞到你身旁

不管距离有多远

只因你是我的一时之缘

没了缘

没了心

也没了你

你走以后

我的一切都会崩溃

我知道我不该

不该陷入太深

是我太顽固

不顾一切的喜欢你

好想把你独占

把你藏起

可也想起

原来

你也许要翅膀

你也需要飞翔

chinchai updates~!!!

2009-05-31T19:16:00.009+08:00

i really dunno what to update loh...
kitty ah, why you blow me to update??

anyway, i really wanna see updatei can do it...

ok~ lets start with...
French Week!!
and this is all i got for you to enjoy!!

and then i got something that ms oli took with cousin at cameron weeks ago...

those are it... dint take a lota pict loh....

just some here some there...

and then the most delicious part comes where...

handsome guy picture~!!

lets take a look at it...

there are actually some teeth broken and took some picture lah...

but... dont feel like putting it up =P

and the place where there's bandage on...

you wouldnt want to see the real thingie...

its worse that the last picture you see there...

other than those pictures....

we have... JADE'S PARTY!!!

lets see... i only got one video i record myself...

and some picture from my phone...

so if you wanna see other picture,

i think you can see that at li fan's blog or jade's blog...

so lets see the VIDEO!!!

but erm.... hehe...

the video is horizontal...=P

so better not post it... later you all need to watch by lying down....

hahahaha

and lastly.... want to say something to someone who i dont think will see this blog.

haha. weird right? then write for what hoh?

anyway...

*************************************************************************

To: Mr X

よろしくおねがいします、ほんとにだいすき。だから、あたしいやじゃないですね？

anything that you dont like, plz do tell me so. =p

XXX

*************************************************************************

Well~!!! thats all for today's post i guess...

dunno when only i'll update again nia....

so... plz be patient~!!!

SALUT~~~!! DaMn! ItS BeEn a LonG tiMe!!

2009-04-17T17:51:00.006+08:00

kay lah.... here i am again

after the long long weeks(not days) unexcessing my blog...

my darling is rushing me to update my bloggie...

but i really dont hv anything to say i guess...

college life came bcak... friends came bcak... fun came bcak...

especially fun lecturers!!

damn those lectures for being so fun!!

french class was fun lah~

but pity those guys being called by the "NAMES" thats given by

Monsieur Yeoh our Français lecturer...

lets refresh the "NAMES" shall we? lets see...

we hv

Mignon , Poulet , Ms Watever ,

Jusco Guy,Pomme and Special Attention Kid....

i think thats all ba...

n french is damn hard to pronounce!!!

dont like the 'R' sound...

sounds like you want to spit... eww...

Ms. Suzzane our Marketing Lecturer was totally out of her mind...

too big action but caught our attention,

but sometimes just too much that i can only turn my mouth into O shape n swt(-_-")...

guess this term will be quite buzy... assignments all over again...

well... i think thats all for this post?

If you think this post is still not enough yet....

YOU WRITE LAH!!! =P

太勇敢？还是太笨？

2009-03-21T16:33:00.003+08:00

我是做错了吗。。。？
我该做什么决定？以成了定局。。。应该什么也做不了了吧。。。
一手维持的地位，最后把它毁灭的也是自己。。。

还好他不会看华语，不然我就完蛋了。。。
第一次将心里的话，
心里的感受，
统统都压抑在心里, 不敢告诉[他]人。。。
昨晚终于做了个决定，对自己诚实，也对他诚实。。。

也不知为何会踩进一个黑洞里，
被人拉住也要甩开他人手，然后再度踩进去。。。
我这人笨得够力吧。。。
明知朋友说对了，还是拼命说服自己，
“不会的，这只是爱慕，爱慕哥哥一样的。。。”
怎知道，原来喝醋也会上瘾。
什么事都要喝一番，不该喝的时候也喝。。。

我很清楚他只当我是妹妹，没别的。。。
可是自己笨得傻，给自己希望
痛心的希望。。。
希望，没断过。。。
一直期待，期待他会看见我。。。

虽然我知道，他心里，永远不会有我。。。。。。

something i really wanna say... but do not dare to...

2009-02-10T21:15:00.002+08:00

私は本当にあなたが好きであるが
何をするか知らないで、
あなたが私を見て、
その感覚を返して頂けますか？

を除いて　私がそれを知っている　これまで起こる.
私があなたには単純明快すぎる.　
あなたがよりよく値する.

我想念的是。。。

2009-01-26T00:48:00.003+08:00

好想好想。。。
好想好想。。。
好想好想。。。
大家在一起。。。

好想你们啦~~！！！
T_T
有谁呢。。。？
想想看。。。

天使，
苹果，
男苹果，
芬芬（不知你是那个芬），
james,
irene,
lisa,
han(pa),
ivan,
jo,
june,
kath,
jade,
lifan,
sookhui,
eunice,

还有好多好多人。。。
写不完了啦。。。
留言一下吧！！

p/s : 还有漏了谁？？！！请快快告诉我！！

爱你哦！！

和达令的照片~！！

2008-12-30T00:05:00.003+08:00

达达令达令~~！

好久不见~~！！

2008-12-29T23:12:00.009+08:00

也不是好久啦~

圣诞节来临~~！！！

2008-12-25T15:27:00.002+08:00

哈哈
圣诞节了！
觉得好好玩哦。。。
又有礼物收了！！
不知道这次会收到什么礼物呢？？
期待期待~

我自己也买了
给自己的礼物！！
没什么特别啦~~
就是两本我最爱的东西~
小说！！！
不过是英文的啦~
*****************
第一本是：

TWILIGHT

第二本是：

NEW MOON
*****************
还蛮不错看得叻～～
我已看完第一本了！！
现在要去居续看～！！！

在这里
祝大家：MERRY　CHRISTMAS~~!!

我的[总算]来了~~

2008-12-19T14:05:00.003+08:00

好！
婉仪~
[总算]来了。。。
嘿嘿。。。

好吧。。。
这几天看到
他的衰样。。。
开始有放得开的心了。。。
还有点调皮的心。。。
嘿嘿。。。
想在他面前耍LC!!!
LOL~~

好吧。。。
[总算]
没有浪费朋友的口水~！！
好高兴~！！！

2008-12-14T17:18:00.004+08:00

我决定这篇不放Title。。。
应为我真的不知道要怎么说。。。

对不起，
苹果，
天使，
还有很多支持我的人。。。

我达不到你们的期望。。
我忘不了。。。
而且，
不只忘不了。。。
还越来越想[他]。。。

我知道我很失败
也知道
你们可能开始觉得
我的这问题很烦。。。

这几天你们回家了，
我好想开始读书。。。
可是我没法
把[他]抛到脑后去。。。

有时我
也想过找个人来忘了[他]。。。
可是，
那个人的一举一动
让我想起[他]。。。

当那个人拿起手机，
我就会想到。。。

在逛街时[他]和人传简讯

然后想到。。。

[他]半夜起来传简讯

然后想到。。。

[他]走远远去听来电

然后想到。。。

照片

然后当我想起照片的时候
我恨不得把[他]的电脑摔掉。。。

其实那天我
已经很想把他电脑摔一摔
然后顺手的把它从9楼丢下去。。。
可是我忍。。。
因为我想等他说实话，
然后告诉我
他会把照片Delete掉。。。

可是。。。
他没有。。。。。。
————————————————————————————————————————————

还有那天
最后一天的“约会”（其实不算吧）
当我和他各自上车后
我哭了。。。
因为在“约会”开始时
我对我自己说
“如果他不主动过来，
我们今晚就完了。。。”

而我没做到。。。
因为我以为
他看到那一晚的简讯后
他会有所反应。。。

然而。。。
他没有。。。

然后现在。。。
我“好像”要病倒了（发烧）。。。
嘿嘿。。。

我怀念的- 孙燕姿

2008-12-13T00:53:00.007+08:00

我该相信你很爱我

不愿意敷衍我

还是明白你已不想挽回什么

自尊常常将人拖着

把爱都走曲折

假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸

我怀念的是争吵以后

还是想要爱你的冲动

谁爱的太自由

谁过头太远了

谁要走我的心

谁自古自里走

谁忘了看着我

谁让爱变执着

我放手

我让座

假洒脱

谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了

最后。。。

2008-12-10T18:01:00.004+08:00

我要谢谢我朋友。。。
没有他们
我可能会崩溃。。。
可能会每晚都躲在房里
发呆。。。
和他们在一起。。。
我可以不顾他的伤害
他的不管。。。
可是。。。
我对不起大家。。。
因为，我还是很想他。。。。。。

爱你们哦~！！
（你们应该知道你们是谁吧？？嘿嘿~）

终于。。。

2008-12-09T14:20:00.002+08:00

结束了。。。
什么都结束了。。。
痛苦。。。
伤心。。。
和担心。。。
都结束了。。。
他甚至不想挽回我。。。
我想，
他也不会发觉我的痛苦。。。
每天只会给借口
每天只会骗我。。。
我只要他挽回，
我就会等他。
我只要他诚实，
我就会等他。

我还傻傻得一直等待。。。
等他回头看我。。。
为他而哭。。。

这是我写的短讯：
"well then,
i'll tell you here then.
From now onward,
i'm not your dear not your gf anymore.
You dont hv to worry bout me or care for me anymore.
That's all..."

而这是他的回复：
"ok.."

Evita - You Must Love Me

2008-12-04T17:24:00.002+08:00

deep in my heart,

i'm concealing

things that i'm longing to say

scared to confess what i'm feeling...

frightened you'll slip away

you must love me

照片来咯。。。

2008-12-04T02:59:00.003+08:00

看有人多勤力啊~！！

阿沙力咯~

这是before!然后这是after!

再来的这些照片

都是我们去吃大餐所拍的

江江江江~~！！！

好美的灯光~

好陶醉哦~！！

要下此决定吗。。。？

2008-12-04T02:24:00.002+08:00

我。。。
应该下此决定吗。。。？
应该放弃这等待吗。。。。？
应该放你自由。。。
让你走。。。
让你不用为了我而烦吗。。。？

我不要。。。

2008-12-03T16:20:00.002+08:00

我不要低头，
错的不是我。。。
应该道歉的不是我，
应该是他。。。
应该是他找我，
不是我找他。。。

可为什么他偏偏就不找我？
为什么他可以看到当看不到？
为什么我要那么在乎他？
为什么我可以为了他而自己伤心？

不是我不说。。。

2008-12-03T11:48:00.003+08:00

不是我不要说。。。
而是我怕。。。
我没有大家想得那么坚强。。。

我和苹果说。。。
我好想笨下去。。。
可是我的心痛到快哭了。。。
我好想不理别人说他的事。。。
然后相信他。。。
不管他们说的事是真是假。。。

我知道我好傻。。。。
还为了他。。。
哭了。。。
每次看到他的离去。。。
我的心。。。
痛。。。。。。。。

今天的结论是。。。

2008-12-01T21:11:00.003+08:00

在婉仪家不可能会读书的！！！

可怜的我
被骗来还没得读书。。。
婉仪和男苹果在玩DOTA。。。
苹果又不知道在搞什么冬冬。。

大家都懒惰！！！

讨厌的老哥。。。

2008-11-30T21:42:00.002+08:00

我老哥好讨厌啦~
什么不好说，说鬼故事！！
毛孔都站起来了啦~

他说哦
在云顶。。。
每个房间
每个角落
都会有“X”哦。。。
他朋友可以看到耶。。。
房间有
厕所有
角落有
统统都有！！！
好恐怖耶！！！

我老爸更好笑！
他说很多人跳楼
是应为鬼看到他们赌博赌输了
上他们身
然后走去跳楼叻
厉害吧！！

我听了后好怕
我对我乖乖说我怕怕。。。
他说很好
可以不睡觉了
乖乖不乖！！！

菜色还不错的说~~

2008-11-29T23:26:00.002+08:00

今晚的菜色还不错的说！
而且宝贝还muack了我
虽然是在短讯里。。。
可是我好高兴哦！！
他主动耶！好难得的哦！！

今晚看到婆婆有起色了。。。
为大家高兴~
可是妈妈唱歌走位。。。
有点想打那DJ的。。
嘿嘿。。。

今晚就到此。。。
大家安安~

好想问你。。。

2008-11-29T11:20:00.003+08:00

我好想问你好多问题
可是我怕
怕你不喜欢
怕你觉得我烦
怕你觉得我管太多
好想问你。。。
“你在和谁短讯？”
“你为什么不对我笑了？”
“我做错什么事了吗？”
“你是真心的吗？”
“你不喜欢我了吗？”
“你有另外喜欢的人了吗？”
“你。。。”
。。。
我问不完。。。
数不清的问题在头脑里。。。
完全不敢问。。。
怕你不要我了。。。

我讨厌做assignment~~

2008-11-29T11:10:00.003+08:00

讨厌死了啦~！！几百个assisgnment要做！我们来看看有什么assignment吧。。。
1。English >>finish<<
2。POMD (3000 & 1000)
3。Wine >>finish??<<
4。HACCP
死没有。。。？？！！
神啊救救我吧~~！

好。。。不好。。。

2008-11-28T20:04:00.003+08:00

心好闷。好痛苦。好想他。好想哭。好不想为难他。好不想他痛苦。好讨厌他的时冷时热，他的要理不理，他的沉默不出声。我宁愿他罗索他解释，也不要他避开我，用“别乱想”来打发我。应为那只会让我更乱想。遇到他，我醋捅打翻了。完完全全打翻了。第一次感觉到心闷的感觉，闷到好像几乎要昏倒了。。。有谁来阻止我对他说那三个字。。。？？我不能说，我怕说了会像以前一样。我不管他坏不坏，抽不抽，我都要他一直在我身边。有谁可以来告诉我他在想什么。。。。。。？

Can i cry without tears....?

2008-11-27T12:33:00.000+08:00

no body can cry without tears... but i think i can... for someone who i like and he doesn't want it... for him who doesn't want it truely... for him... only for him...

I dont want this to happen...

2008-11-27T10:19:00.008+08:00

a letter for my precious...

"i told you about my past is not because i want you not to be serious with it, its because i want you to know how unconfidence i am with myself with... and i want you to help me gain back my confidence... plz do not leave me and plz do not ignore me and treat me almost like an invincible like these few days... my heart hurts... but when you came back and sat right next to me yesterday, my heart was flying and beating madly... i'm happy when you're around... plz... dont leave me..."

DinnerTime!!

2008-06-26T00:34:00.008+08:00

the one standing up is the waiter who's ordering the noisy us... =]

focus somewhere near emily's face!! bob's butt!!

we(group2 n a lil bit of other group) had this LITTLE dinner with our mighty Mr. Patrick that night at somewhere in ara damansara(thats what i heard) call "ROOIBOS" or something like that. this nice LITTLE cafe we went had nice food, nice drink, nice environment and nice ICE-CREAM!!! so do ask around to go there for any meal.

Mr.patrick comes back from somewhere-we-don-wanna-know... =]

We also had this wonderful time throwing darts (just throw, don care if it hits!)... skeet, dip, one and billy(i think) were throwing it from the table! its like the length of 3king size bed together!!They were throwing darts and patrick sat infront of them!! THROW GUYS! THROW!! (patrick is stoping them, scare they'd throw at him) hehe...

THIS is something MEMORABLE!!!!!

everybody running away when they tot they had to pay everything!!hehe... it cost around 400 something if i'm not wrong...

after the cafe thing, we all went yamcha at the curve except patrick. he went home and left the speeders to speed on the road like mad. but it was an exciting ride as someone went the other way, and hariz went dunno where. reaching the curve we meet up with ashley's car ppl, bob's car ppl, hariz's, bill's, one's... then we had this wonderful secret night... GOOD NIGHT!!

Finally!!

2008-06-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

YO!!! Wassap everyone! Finally i cant stand it, and created my own blog...haha...looking at everybody's blog so fun, so tot of hving one myself will be nice~! And here i am!!!